First post on my new website. New branding, new name, same me. Well, not entirely the same me, more like the continuation of me. Being a space that is dedicated to my art, I am aware that there has been very little new art being shared lately. I’m still creating, just not outwardly for the world to see.
The social commentary at the moment is to point out that “these be strange times”. Yep. They are super strange. I’m sure that has had something to do with my lack of creative output but mostly I have been spending time rebuilding and taking things in. I have just recently finished my study in Graphic Design, which took up a lot of my energy. I’ve also been attending group therapy again as well as increased 1:1 therapy and doing Schema work, which is exhausting. I was quite depleted after my exhibit and despite wanting to keep going, I just needed time away from the easel.
Part of me feels a little guilt for not creating and making content. I mean, I am meant to be running a business here, right? I’m meant to be living my passion, creating and powering through. Lucky for me, the “Iso” that came with Covid was very nicely timed. It gave me a free pass to have a rest and re-evaluate what I am doing here and what direction I want it to go. This space, made for my art and creativity, needs to have a very different pace from the rules of business. I need a lot of down time and quiet. I have fluctuations of creativity and reflection and I simply have found that I can not time them or fit them into a structure. That is because it is all creativity. Even when I am not outwardly making, I am inwardly processing and that will one day come out as my next art work, whether I realise it or not. This is a LIFESTYLE, not a business. That is how it all started, and that is what it keeps coming back to.
But do not fret, you won’t be getting pages of waffle as I think through my processes. I can feel the need for painting and creating bubbling to the surface and I hope to get started on some painting later this week. Till then, I guess what I really want to share is that, as always, it is the process that makes art. Which means that life is the actual art, everything else is just gravy (I watched something this week that used that phrase…I’m sticking with it).